Do you ever have those days where you feel like everything is in complete chaos? As if you are running here, there and all around like you have no idea what is going on? Then this flood of emotions overwhelms you and you break. Well this has been my story for at least the past month…and today, I broke. Matter of fact, I broke in public…at the gym…a women’s gym, thank goodness, where my dear friend is an instructor, aka booty-kicker, and she just happened to walk by after class as I was talking to Mike on the phone and began to cry. The emotions rushed over me so quickly and the weight was so heavy. I immediately hung up the phone to talk to her, because I know she had just been through a season change too and could understand far more than my amazing, loving husband in this instance. She encouraged me and I was even able to leave the gym with a smile on my face! God amazes me daily as He knows our needs and strategically places us where we need to be in the proper time.
Lately though I’ve been terrible at returning FB and text messages within 24 hours. I apologize if you’ve messaged me and it’s taken a day or two or even three or four to respond. I’m thoroughly embarrassed and I sincerely ask for your forgiveness. I am working on my super quick response times again. With Mike traveling again this week and the massive shift in hormones from dropping my breast milk supply (TMI maybe), I have this anxiousness in my spirit. So many unknowns. I’ve been pregnant, nursing or both since January 2012. This new season is so unknown to me and as I walk into it, I feel like an extreme Hot Mess so to speak. I know I’ve referred to myself quite a bit lately as a Hot Mess Express. I also know that many times we women are so incredibly hard on ourselves trying to have it all together: striving to be an amazing child of God, wife, mom, daughter, friend, boss, coworker, volunteer, etc. all while keeping a super clean home, car and dressing to perfection, when in fact there are some days in which nothing is together…when you are even lucky to change the kids out of their pajamas and brush their teeth. Hey, it happens! Thank goodness for His unending grace!
I remember back to a sermon in which our incredible pastor spoke on this particular topic. Did you know that God can turn your mess into a message and your test into a testimony? Did you know that God doesn’t create Hot Messes, but rather Hot Masterpieces? We are fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God. Wow! How reassuring! Many times I feel like I’m failing miserably when I know how highly He thinks of me! I know there are days where I constantly remind myself that I am not a mistake…that I am here for a specific purpose that only I can accomplish. This particular thought alone helps my mind to shift knowing that all the little things we stress about today: having it all together, what other people think about us, who we might offend, our careers/jobs, how many kids we should have, our financial situation, the cars we drive, the homes we live in, etc. are 100% not from God. These are thoughts from the enemy. He knows where each one of us struggles and he will begin to plant these seeds of anxiety, fear and doubt. I mean his primary goal is to steal, kill and destroy, but God already has this figured out for each one of us. The key is to continually rest in knowing this promise wholeheartedly.
Today, I want to encourage you to know that you are a Masterpiece. I want you to know that God doesn’t make mistakes and that He has a specific plan just for YOUR life…one of abundant blessings and prosperity. If you are in a season of change or feel like a Hot Mess Express, extend yourself a little grace, because sometimes life is hard. Remember when you feel like you are breaking to lean in for guidance, stand back up, and take that first step forward. I believe in you and I know that our Heavenly Father has HUGE plans for your life!
Thank you for another day on this earth to make a difference in the lives of others. Today I am giving you full authority to turn my mess into a message and my test into a testimony. I am choosing to trust you and your promises. I am choosing to believe that I am created for greatness and that I am fearfully and wonderfully made in your image. I’m blown away by your unending grace, love, and mercy and am in awe that you can use me, a sinner, to spread your love and light. You are so, so good. God, thank you for creating me as a masterpiece. Thank you for divine appointments and knowing what I need even before I do. Thank you for community and loving friends. Thank you for being the perfect Father and guiding my way. Thank you for pruning me to be more like Jesus everyday, even when it isn’t comfortable. Thank you, Lord, for this incredible life!
In Jesus’ name,