About 13 years ago, I sat across from a man on a college visit and he said, “90% of students who declare accounting as their major end up changing it by the end of their second year.” Well, by golly, he just challenged me and might have not even known. No matter if and how much I hated accounting I wasn’t EVER going to change my major. Matter of fact, I was going to make it my career FOR LIFE! Stubborn much? My entire life I have always been motivated by people telling me the odds were stacked against me or by telling me I couldn’t do something. Just ask my parents. I definitely wasn’t the most obedient child and I always did the exact opposite. So why do I tell you this? Because there came a point in my life when I had to lay down this pride. I had to humble myself and be willingly obedient to God’s will.
You see in my mind I was going to be this successful CFO at some point in my life. I was going to be the incredible working mom that reached the top. I was going to work for some amazing company until I retired. I was going to prove everyone wrong that challenged me or said, “You aren’t going to amount to much.” Goodness was I going to prove them wrong. Then something happened…I had a daughter. The day we found out we were pregnant, I looked at Mike and said, “We need to find Jesus…like yesterday.” And so it began…the journey to grow intimate with my Lord and Savior, the journey to follow His will at all costs, the journey to share His love with everyone. Once I held that baby girl in my arms, God laid it on my heart that I was to be home with her and to step away from my career, but financially we couldn’t swing it at the time. We began seeking Him for guidance. We literally watched Him work this out right in front of our very eyes. We paid off over $80,000 in debt in only 2 years. We watched Mike receive a generous promotion. We grasped hold of two opportunities that He strategically placed in our lives at the perfect time. I still get so giddy watching Him at work. Mike laughs at me and says, “You are like a kid at Christmas. Has He ever not come through on His word?” People tend to fail us regularly, because we are human, but God…He is a different story. He always follows through on His promises…ALWAYS!
Even though we were watching God work this all out to allow me to step away from my career to raise our two amazing kids, I still struggled. I had worked so hard for where I was professionally. I had grown personally twenty years in two. I was eager to work on myself harder than anything else and it paid off. I was on the brink of a manager promotion for a billion-dollar construction company at the ripe age of twenty-nine! I had allowed God to move in my life and He defied all odds in my career…and all areas for that matter! All of the glory goes to Him for sure! It was so incredibly difficult for me to lay down my pride and walk away from it all…the people, the pay, the title, the benefits. I was going to let all of those people who doubted me win! I couldn’t allow that! But here was God nudging me saying, “You’ve heard me speak and watched me work on your behalf. Just take the leap. The time is now.” I remember being so torn that I was sick to my stomach and couldn’t sleep. I was short with my family. I was confused, lost, and out of it. I knew where God wanted me and that was home with my children. He wanted me to step away from something that I spent so much time focusing on to transfer my attention to something He needed me to do for the Kingdom. You know, God’s will will always prevail. It will come to pass. Maybe not on your timeline, but on His. You can try and run from it, but in the end He knows best and His will WILL be done. Each day I drove to work it felt as if I was itching a burn. It was so uncomfortable. I was crying going to and coming home from work. I was breaking. I couldn’t live like this anymore. When I walked out those doors for the last time as an employee, I felt free. A peace so incredibly great and indescribable washed over my body and mind. I had no idea what was to come in the days, weeks and months ahead, but I was at complete peace in my soul. I was finally walking in the will of God after fighting Him for months. I used to wake up every morning and say, “But God, you are messing up my plans.” Now, I wake up every morning and ask God,” Where do you need me today?” Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being home with children and not missing any moments. There is no place I’d rather be, but remember I didn’t want those people to win! Stubborn pride…
Today I challenge you to lay down your pride and humble yourself. Is it easy? Absolutely not. Is it worth it? No doubt! Choose to walk in complete submission to the will of God. He always knows what’s best. He is a good, good Father. He is THE perfect Father. When you feel Him prompting you to step out in faith, do it immediately. Don’t wait. I can speak from experience and I don’t know that I have ever experienced anything more stressful in my life. The peace you will feel even when none of it makes sense culturally is so incredibly worth it. He has great things in store for YOU! He has plans of prosperity for YOU! If you are not at peace in life, you are not walking in the will of God. I encourage you to step back and listen to what God may be leading you to. Throughout the past seven months, I have come to experience Jesus in a whole new way. I trust Him in new ways. I love Him on a new level. He completely blows my mind everyday with the new relationships and work He is doing in our lives. He wants that for YOU too! He wants YOU to seek Him as your personal Savior! He wants to lead YOUR life fully! He wants to use YOU!
Today I seek you and your will at all costs. I choose you. I choose to follow the plans you have for me and my family, even if they aren’t my plans, even if I have no idea how this is all going to work out, even if it makes no sense. You know best. You see all. As any good parent, you want what is best for us. All we need to do is listen and act obediently. You already have this worked out in our favor even though we are sometimes terrified to take the leap of faith. Help me to trust you fully. Help me to surrender to your will. Help me to live in complete submission to you, Oh Lord. Help me to lay down my pride and humble myself. Help me to constantly give you all the glory in my life for without you I am nothing! Lord, thank you for choosing me to walk out this amazing life. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for believing in me. Lord, I pray for less of me and more of you to guide my life. Help me to be sensitive to the promptings of the Spirit so I can truly walk out the calling you have for my life. Help me to focus on advancing the Kingdom and loving others, than on my own personal gain. Father, thank you for calling me to this incredible life. Thank you just doesn’t seem to be enough!
In Jesus’ Name,